Monday, 10 August 2015

Personal Post: I'VE MOVED TO ENGLAND!


GUYS I'M IN ENGLAND.

I SURVIVED THE 11+ HOUR FLIGHT.

I ENDURED TURBULENCE AND ANXIETY ATTACKS.

HERE I AM!

It feels totally surreal to be back and I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it! I was extremely excited but I'm so ferociously homesick right now that I don't think I can muster much enthusiasm present as I'm missing my house, dogs and friends so much! 

My anxiety has also been awful due to all the changes and I felt so ill with it on the plane that I sincerely had no idea how I was going to stay calm on the flight and make a new life here in England and leaving all my "security blankets" behind. I had this overwhelming desire to just go back to my former life where I felt safe with what I knew and didn't have to move outside of my comfort bubble but I realise that if I want to get anywhere in life I'll have to push myself to do things that make me uncomfortable, things that terrify me to the point that I'm frozen in fear, knowing that I'll come out of it as a stronger person.

I really didn't enjoy the aeroplane ride at all. I generally enjoy flying once my anxiety has settled down (generally 30 minutes or so after take off) but the flight was horrible. It was extremely hot, it was incredibly noisy, I couldn't sleep comfortably  (I probably only slept 30 minutes the whole flight) and the turbulence was so bad that the plane dipped at one point and everyone's food trays went flying which was utterly terrifying. When we were about to land the pressure was also very bad and it was just a horrible flight, unfortunately! I'm so glad it's over!

However, I'm trying to have a positive outlook and have faith in God but it is difficult, especially with my bad panic attacks and my mom's poor health and the fact that I really didn't enjoy England the first time I lived here. However, like I said, I'm trying to focus on the positives. We're living in an absolutely gorgeous guest house on a farm and it's so wonderful and peaceful. I'm also hoping to go to several charity stores (CHEAP BOOKS!!!), libraries and the village where the farm resides! 

I'll keep you all updated on how I find England! <3



13 comments:

  1. Is said only when you get out of your comfort zone you find the exciting life you were waiting for, even if you aren't. So, stay positive because good things will come, and sure you learn how to enjoy England if you want to. Keep us updated! Good luck!

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    1. Thank you! I'm definitely trying to keep a positive attitude and so far I'm really enjoying it ! :D

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  2. Hubby and I are constant travellers, but I still get anxious every time we fly. I'm glad you're safe and sound. I hope you'll acclimate well enough to England!

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    1. Thank you! Ja, I enjoy flying but I do get quite anxious initially!

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  3. CONGRATULATIONS ON SURVIVING THAT PLANE RIDE, KYRA!! Urgh, flying is horrible, isn't it? The longest I've flown for is three hours to Tunisia, so I can't imagine an 11 hour flight! Anyway, you made it, and that's all that counts, right?! I hope you have lovely adventures (and I REALLY hope that our charity shop books live up to your expectations!!)
    Beth x
    www.thequietpeople.com

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    1. THANK YOU SO MUCH! I generally like flying but this trip was just awful! And yes they do, I've only been into one so far since I've been here but they had such good books - definitely going to make sure I have enough money on me the next time I go in there so I can buy some! :D x

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  4. Awww, sorry the plane ride was awful :( When I visited England at the beginning of this year my mum warned me the plane would be freezing but it was SO HOT. Ugh. And 23 hours of flying, too, which sucked. But I hope things start to look up for you :D

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    1. I generally get so cold on planes but that plane was like a furnace! UGH. I can't imagine flying 23 hours, 11 hours was torture enough for me haha! Thank you, I'm feeling more settled in already! <3

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  5. My cousin recently moved to England as well. I know homesickness and anxiety can be awful but I'm sure it will be worth it soon. Just try to remember what made you wanna come here in the first place <3

    Ivana | Block of Beauty

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    1. Yep, I'm just trying to focus on all the positives of living here! <3

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  6. I know you're probably a bit scared and hesitant (I would be too!), but I know you'll shine in England :) You'll make awesome friends, and you'll do so well there. There are so many opportunities and great places to see in England. Yikes sorry about the bad flight. Luckily it's over. I can't wait for you to embark on this new adventure! :D

    Rachel @ A Perfection Called Books

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    1. Thank you so much for the lovely comment! I'm really enjoying England so far and I'm loving exploring all the different areas! :) xx

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  7. I'm sorry your flight was so terrible and that you're so homesick right now. I think you're really brave, I don't think I'd have the courage to move to another county. The guest house sounds amazing, definitely better than living where I live - in London, where it's loud and noisy >.< I hope you settle in and enjoy your time here :)

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